the writer


((TRUDY))

i'm just a plus-sized anti-social bum/loser who have always been wishing for the ability to fart my fats away and to be stick thin which is unfortunately,
highly impossible.
ultimately,
i'm perfectly imperfect.


yesterday

May 2008
June 2008
July 2008
August 2008
September 2008
October 2008
November 2008
December 2008
January 2009
March 2009



holler





you're the missing piece i need,
the song inside of me.
i gotta find you.
i need to find you.




your scent is like a drug to me.
like my own personal brand of heroin.

i'll be back so soon,
you won't have time to miss me.
look after my heart -
i've left it with you.















Sunday, June 29, 2008 @ 7:11 PM
ching ching.

SO MUCH TO BUY/DO!
SO LITTLE CASH.

its all 'bout the money. its all 'bout the dum dum da da dum dum.

anyway. its driving lessons tomoro. ): *worried*



Saturday, June 28, 2008 @ 8:29 PM
moooooo.

caught NEVER BACK DOWN online.


cool movie with great fight scenes, i must say. (:
*punch;punch;punch;roundhousekick!*
the whole training thing made me miss ray's kickboxing lessons. in the past, the adrenalin rush was simply amazing! but now, i'm nothing but a lump of fat without him. ): *cries*

just came home from town actually.
dad took mom and me out for dinner at the soup restaurant.
AND... i got myself a new COW-printed bedsheet. COOL OR WHAT!!??!!

oh yes. speaking of which...
a few weeks back... nana got me the cutest brolly in the world!
CHECK IT OUT:

anyone wanna share my umbrella-ella-ella-ella??

all of a sudden, i realised that i've been bumming around at home since wednesday.
damn it. i need to get up-and-about from monday onwards.
*slaps self*





Friday, June 27, 2008 @ 4:24 PM
bling bling.

went for the medical checkup with my mom in the morning.
dad dropped us of at boon lay station and we took the internal bus in.
apparently, we were LOST cos the school is humongous. so, we had to ask for directions!
while i was in the mobile xray bus, i spoke to 2 other girls that were there.
both of them were in accountancy too.
and its written all over their faces that they are JC-bred. the moment they spoke, and u'd know.
1 of them is going for the NBS FOC, while the other is unsure (like me).
and both of them are staying in the hall with their friends.
kinda envy them actually. cos they have company, like friends with them. so it wouldn't be that scary on the first day.
i don't have anyone with me. so. it does get a little lonely. ):
anyway, i STILL have to go back for the medical examination cos i couldn't complete it with my "little red friend" here. damn it. i have to hunt my way back AGAIN.

OH. my mom and i caught 21 after that. (:


seriously, IF ONLY I HAD A SUPER BRAIN like that guy in the movie.
he got into harvard medical school after attaining 1590 SAT, 44 MCAT, and a 4.0 GPA.

I COULD SO TOTALLY USE THAT! (;



Thursday, June 26, 2008 @ 12:05 PM
you're the missing piece i need, the song inside of me.

watched CAMP ROCK online!


Watch "Camp Rock" Movie (clickable link)

it stars THE JONAS BROTHERS! (:

nick; joe; kevin

JOE IS LOVEEEE!

anyways, its another amazing disney musical movie. (: 2thumbsup! great songs too!!
now i'm totally dying for the soundtrack.
fans of HSM should really catch this.

okay. back to reality. wake up dee.

Demi Lovato & Joe Jonas - This Is Me

slightly blurry but still do-able. (:

oh yes. NEW IMEEM PLAYLIST added!
check it out. (:



Wednesday, June 25, 2008 @ 11:05 PM
burp!

had akira's japanese buffet for dinner with bel and jam. (:
it was suppose to be bel's farewell dinner. AWW.



chatting about our secondary school days has indeed brought back lots of memories.
yes. i had memories of my own. it wasn't just ME and my BOOKS okay! *hmph*

omgg. i'm super sleepy.
g'night world.



@ 8:59 AM
for better or worse?

PRESENTING...


yay! (: i can't wait for HSM3 to be in the movieeesss.

zacefron! zacefron! zacefron! zacefron! zacefron! zacefron! zacefron! zacefron! zacefron!


and. i'm cramping like shit. ):
damn it.
and I don't know how am i gonna turn up for friday's medical checkup in this state. *gulps*



Tuesday, June 24, 2008 @ 4:35 PM
"its just a story.", i convinced myself.

awww-ish stuff. (:



and my favourite of all...


are only vampires-in-stories this sweet? hmmm...



Monday, June 23, 2008 @ 3:25 PM
failure.

had my second assessment today.
24 demerit points...
AND 1 immediate failure (changing lanes without due care)...
YET AGAIN!

i seriously don't know when am i gonna improve.
I SUCK LIKE !#&(*(%$!

SO DEMORALISING CAN.

ok. i'm troubled and i have a craving for korean food. ):



@ 8:43 AM
a morning thought.

i seriously think that gladiator sandals are very weird looking.


not many people can really look good in these pairs of sandals.
needless to say, people with thick legs/calves like me can forget about it.
(its not that i'm dying to own one...)
but i'm just trying to say that it looks very ugly LEH.

and worst still... they now have it in the form of boots!:


i think that u can only look good in them if you're looking like this:


nana calls them the xena sandals! LOL. which is true.
they really remind me of the whole "xena the warrior princess" era.


but i can't really recall if her footwear were like these. =\ actually, i don't think so.
and i don't think she would wear them either. cos it would definitely get in the way when she fights what! and the enemy can just slice of the MANY straps and there goes her sandals!

oh. LOOK LOOK. confirm. i just found another picture of her. she wore boots. LOL.


hahaha. wookay. so much for another random entry.

and W$%&&*#sdfkjio40981u~!! i still can't get an earlier TP test date after tryinggg sooo manyyy timmessss...
i kept refreshing the page but only THIS appears:

all blanks!! seee! all -------!!!!



Sunday, June 22, 2008 @ 9:48 PM
i'm balding.

i'm still torned apart.
thinking if i should go for the NBS FOC.
this is the first time i come across a camp application form that requires your height, weight and a photograph of yourself. its like joining some pageant! worst still, its 5 days 4 nights!
as all of you all know, yours truly is not the outdoorsy sort. ): (just to digress a little: did i ever mention that i hate those super YAYA outdoorsy girls? just because they are darker than the rest, they think that they are like some sun goddess. sorry. period.)
perhaps i should submit my application a day before the closing date and leave it to fate.
but more or less, i can picture myself being a lost loner on the first day of school.

oh well. ):
its vroom vrooomm at 10.30 tomoro.



Saturday, June 21, 2008 @ 10:04 PM
argh.

what should i do. what should i do. what should i do. what should i do.

i hate orientations. ):



Friday, June 20, 2008 @ 8:11 PM
new love.

check this out:


(clickable image)

- 8.2 megapixel camera
- GPS
- wi-fi
- slim slider

what more can you ask for?

*DROOLS*



@ 3:50 PM
vividly.


-new moon

AWW. (:



Thursday, June 19, 2008 @ 8:30 PM
o well...

i had my so called trial run today, during lesson.
and i scored *ahem* 24 demerit points and 1 immediate failure.
OMGWTFBBQ. i suck like nuts.
made mistakes like - wide turning, driving too slowly, changing lanes abruptly, didn't do safety check, failed to check blind spot, had to re-manoeuvre when doing parking, improper braking etc etc etc.
and the grave-st mistake of all, stopping inside the yellow box junction.
apparently, i didn't really stop my whole car in it lah! cos i was really aware that i can't stop there. but i braked slowly... and my front tyres landed inside. TMDTMDTMD!!
and worst of all... it happened on my way back after completing the test route. ):
i think my instructor was practically going crazy.

anyways, met na for dinner at central mall and we had our char-tama ramen.


and we took away cupcakes! x)~




uploading pictures from my digicam is sooo painful...
file's too big and it takes ages for blogger to load them in...
blame it on my stupid phone. ): camera's getting blurry. *sulk*



Wednesday, June 18, 2008 @ 8:31 PM
nostalgic.

went to meet jam and bel after my driving lesson today.
we had sushi tei for lunch and we went over to jam's place after that.

and i checked out some of our childhood pictures. (:


thats jam and i during her birthday party.
now you know why we're life long friends? LOL.
and my hair's simply CLASSIC!

check out the next few!


me and my clique - merissa, grace and selena.
its kinda sad how we lost contact.
i do miss the hangouts, sleepovers... and how we are completely crazy over boybands. ):


my other classmates and i.
don't ask me who am i glaring at.
i have completely no idea what i was thinking!


and i was rather chatty last time too.
my chinese teachers used to pick on me.
they'll be like screaming... “林丽!你给我站起来! 罚站!"
believe it or not... i couldn't care less.
back at that time, i found talking to my "neighbour" more interesting than listening to the 老师!

oh well.
those were the days.
where nothing else mattered.

*sniff*



Tuesday, June 17, 2008 @ 7:37 PM
it will be as if i'd never existed.

driving lesson was okay today.
unfortunately, i still suck.

nana bought cupcakes from paisley & cream. (:
looks good and cute but have yet to try it. xD~





anyways, i seriously need help in planning for my upcoming revision lessions. ):

AND AHHH... I NEED A NEWW CAMMEHLAA PHONEEE LAHHH! *rolls on floor*



Sunday, June 15, 2008 @ 6:22 PM
happy daddy's day.

we had a scrumptious lunch at suntec's soup restaurant this afternoon.











and its great that daddy liked his new mont blanc wallet. (:

OH great. my k800i is seriously getting really useless.



@ 10:31 AM
orchard mile.

we reached the finishing line at 19mins and 30 secs.
LOL. okay. thats nothing to be proud of, i know.








and yay. we're medal winners!! rrightt...

sian. its gonna be a monday again.



Saturday, June 14, 2008 @ 9:11 PM
in short.

went for a k and nails session with zl and jassy today. (:

and its... anlene run with mom and jam tomoro. x\

******

"i love you," i whispered.
"you are my life now," he answered simply.



Friday, June 13, 2008 @ 10:45 PM
xoxo, gossip girl

met jam, wen and cat for dinner today at bakerzin. (:
lol. too hungry to snap pictures of the main course.
but... there's always dessert. (;

*food porn alert:

strawberry shortcake


strawberry chocolate fondue


coupe cheesecake


mango passion sorbet


warm chocolate cake

just uploading these pictures, can make me FULL again.

BURP.




Thursday, June 12, 2008 @ 2:10 PM
oopsy daisy.

today, i've completed my revision for stage 2 and started on the first topic of the next stage - vertical parking. okay. i'm so NOT IMPROVINGG!! i'm still driving like a freaking beginner who has just been on the wheel for 3 lessons. aaahh.
my instructor was like, "aiyo! 你已经 stage 2 了leh!"
i was like... -_____-
and goodness... if only i can fold the car and put it in my pocket, i would. this is not going anywhere man. ):

and my fate with meeting fun/less intimidating instructors, seem to have been stolen away. ):
for me, pressure = haywire.
which is why i'm having doubts about my practical test. yes. i have booked it. 17 september for now. not sure if i should hog for an earlier date or remain as it is. maybe i should try to get one somewhere in end july or the beginning of august. well. its easier said then done. damn it. i need to plan for my revision lessons already. *yells*

also... i've just received the uni admission handbook. unlike poly, most of the admission/matriculation procedures has to be done online now. which is really confusing... and... and... who's gonna help meeee!!!

OMG. ALL THESE IS DAMN NERVE-WRECKING CAN.

i feel like dying.

and oh yes. last night, while i was trying to get to sleep, cute nana said something like, "eh! what kind of guy you like? i seriously think u need a boyfriend."

OMGWTHBBQ! O_O


//i dont know who you are... but i'm... i'm with you...



Wednesday, June 11, 2008 @ 6:57 PM
hohoho.

nothing much to update about, actually.
just that my "luck" has been going downhill lately. ):

and i have a sudden craving for bentos like these:


and wtf. nobody's gonna catch kungfu panda with me.
HMPH.
nobody loves me.



Tuesday, June 10, 2008 @ 8:08 PM
oh so random.

fathers' day is coming uppp.

a sneak peak of daddy's gift:


HAHA.

and...

this mini instant udon thing is LOVE. (: yummy tofu with cute little flower-like "fish cake".

and... TA DAA!!...

(don't worry n96, my heart's still with you.)

after today, i can further conclude that biker instructors teach best.



@ 9:07 AM
sigh.

sometimes i really regret taking up driving lessons. ):
i'm like a huge hazard that shouldn't be allowed on the roads.
DAMN IT.
I'M SUPER SIAN (again).

all of a sudden, i feel like flying to miami to get a tattoo of this...
and OF CAUSE... by my favourite tattooist, AMI JAMES.
apparently, its just another crazy thought of mine.
*slaps self*