the writer ((TRUDY)) i'm just a plus-sized anti-social bum/loser who have always been wishing for the ability to fart my fats away and to be stick thin which is unfortunately, highly impossible. ultimately, i'm perfectly imperfect. yesterday May 2008 June 2008 July 2008 August 2008 September 2008 October 2008 November 2008 December 2008 January 2009 March 2009 holler you're the missing piece i need, the song inside of me. i gotta find you. i need to find you.  
your scent is like a drug to me.like my own personal brand of heroin. i'll be back so soon, you won't have time to miss me. look after my heart - i've left it with you.      |
Wednesday, November 26, 2008 @ 10:24 PM
fucked up. just went to retrieve my timetable for next semester.
totally different from all of my friends. both my previous group of classmates as well as another group of friends. i don't understand why i am the only one thats different when everyone manage to stay together. heard from others that normally ur classmates would be the same for the whole year. but apparently i'm not so IN LUCK. i seriously don't know how am i gonna cope with things next semester. heard its even more hectic. and i don't even know whether i should take up electives. but just there's more to worry about. how am i gonna get around school myself? who am i gonna do projects with? who can i approach? i can picture myself being a total outcast in a class where everyone knows each other and they all have their own cliques. i know. "make new friends!", says everyone. ya. easier said then done. try being in my shoes and you'll know. besides, i'm not the ultimate "friend-maker" and a "almightly social butterfly". thats the whole trouble cos i'm always happy with a small circle of friends. and once that circle breaks, thats it. i'm lost once again. damn me. i have to say that everything seems to be going wrong the moment i stepped into NTU. and i'm not the only one that thinks so. nothing seems to be going smoothly, as much as i hope it would be. no matter how much i prayed and tried, things still doesn't turn out right. and i haven't been happy most of the time. i'm always troubled, troubled and even more troubled. i just kept thinking to myself... did i really made the right choice in the first place? probably i'm going against my will without knowing. what to do? things are really getting emotional. ): Tuesday, November 25, 2008 @ 11:42 PM
torned apart. just finished spree-ing at davidandgoliathtees.com.
jamie started the whole excitement by telling me that they're having a 50% storewide discount. bought more accessories. (: YAY. can't wait for it to arrive. and hopefully, they're all available by the time jamie orders them. ): oh. i was just complaining to nana yesterday. "why isnt there any touchscreen 8 megapixel phone?!" after surfing around just now, i found out that my wish was already granted. just that, i wasn't aware. =\ PRESENTING....  SAMSUNG PIXON  LG RENOIR (i bet both of it has got a secondary camera!) WHICH SHOULD I GET? OR SHOULD I JUST STAY TRUE TO... Sony C905?  probably i just need to take a look at these phone upclose. then i'm able to make a decision. or... should i wait even longer?? ogay. time for bed. driving lesson at 8.15. *yawns* @ 3:58 PM
insecurity. its over. finally over.
but. i still don't feel right. oh well. all of my papers sucked. so. i just hope to clear all of them. no expectations other than a simple PASS. just wanna get my degree and thats it. my whole driving routine is back from today onwards all the way to 2 december which is my TP test. :S i'm still feeling uneasy. back in the car today, after about 3 months. it was even more disastrous then my usual practices. =O dang. i have forgotten most of the stuffs. god, please grant me my license. ): anyway, went to clear my studytable today. *shudders* took down my 5566 poster and zefron's UP! (:  ZAC ATTACK!!! anyway. i heard that sony c905 phone that i've been yearning for, doesn't come with a secondary camera in the front. so there's no way that u can video call face-to-face. how sad is that. i seriously don't know whats up with sony ericsson! thats just a major BOOBOO. *takes away brownie points* although i don't really use the whole video call function, but... the fact that the phone isn't equipped with that secondary camera puts me off a little. ): HOW. but i want a 8 megapixel phone. ): and the samsung one looks boring. oh well. i have till 4 december to make my decision. in case anyone missed beebit. (:  blog again. Thursday, November 13, 2008 @ 8:07 PM
wicked aura.  this bob-headed eyeball in BROWHAUS's advert really reminds me of BEL. love that classic hairdo. okay. made my point. back to stressing. ): Wednesday, November 12, 2008 @ 10:29 PM
doomsday. had my first paper today.
IT was really a killer. i was really stunned when i read the questions. it was the first time i felt like giving up. its like crazyyy. and the most $%&^*! is that, only like 80% of what i studied came out. but also because the questions were application-based. eff LAH! bad feeling~ there's more to these rantings. but i'm just too tired... all i can do is to hope for the best. EXAMS COUNTDOWN (updated): 11 more days to BLAW and FMGT and ultimately, 11 days till i'm able to embrace freedom. Saturday, November 8, 2008 @ 7:37 AM
blank. choosing the bolder leaves you with no regrets.
it only makes you feel tired. Wednesday, November 5, 2008 @ 5:25 PM
this is it. YAY.
SONY ERICSSON C905 is OUTTTT!!  and i think the white one is really pretty. AHHHH. 4 dec 4 dec 4 dec!! okay. i shall stop dreaming and start studying. ): NO TIME NO TIME NO TIME!!! Monday, November 3, 2008 @ 11:40 PM
presenting... beebit's HAPPY HOP. (:
@ 7:37 PM
take my hand, i'll take the lead. here i am.
last week has been a really dramatic week. the amount of stress got out of hand. WHOLE LOT OF SHIT happened. i do not wish to even recollect those situations and blog about it. cos its simply so.... arghhhhh!! anyway. had my oral assessment 2 today. damn it. i stumbled yet again. my tutor said i was really good in the first part, but as it progress, my level of "energy" declined. which is true. cos once i made a mistake, it happened again (and again). sad. i don't wanna fail this module lah. i don't wanna fail any moduleeee!! AHHH. but why so TOUGH!! grrrr... DAMN IT DAMN IT DAMN IT. then came the IT quiz which was surprisingly quite manageable. MCQ what. EXAM sure die. ): and i'm so angry with that idiot. bloody hell cheat my feelings. I WAS THERE! BUT WHERE THE HELL WERE YOU! okay. rants aside... here are some overdue pictures:  sashimi feast (picture dedicated to my jap food mates, bel and jam)  jap snacks that nana got for me don't care if you are sick of it. but here are some cute shots of beebit. haha. she's cut out to be a pet model. (stupid handphone is incapable of taking nice pictures already. ):)  wednesday is the last day of school. and then... the mugging days are back again. ): its gonna be tough when u can't really seek help. independent learning, they say. ): *SIGHS* EXAMS COUNTDOWN: 8 more days till IT 20 more days till BLAW and FMGT and 21 days till i'm free! i can't wait to... - head back to amore - catch up on my taiwanese dramas - resume my long over due driving lessons (WTF! PDL expired. need to renew.) - slack and rot at home but i still think i will need to head back to school for NAAT activities. why am i always so troubled?! p/s: i'm broke in pet society ):GOODBYE. |
