just went to retrieve my timetable for next semester.
totally different from all of my friends.
both my previous group of classmates as well as another group of friends.
i don't understand why i am the only one thats different when everyone manage to stay together.
heard from others that normally ur classmates would be the same for the whole year.
but apparently i'm not so IN LUCK.

i seriously don't know how am i gonna cope with things next semester.
heard its even more hectic. and i don't even know whether i should take up electives.
but just there's more to worry about.
how am i gonna get around school myself? who am i gonna do projects with? who can i approach?
i can picture myself being a total outcast in a class where everyone knows each other and they all have their own cliques.
i know. "make new friends!", says everyone. ya. easier said then done.
try being in my shoes and you'll know. besides, i'm not the ultimate "friend-maker" and a "almightly social butterfly". thats the whole trouble cos i'm always happy with a small circle of friends. and once that circle breaks, thats it. i'm lost once again. damn me.

i have to say that everything seems to be going wrong the moment i stepped into NTU.
and i'm not the only one that thinks so.
nothing seems to be going smoothly, as much as i hope it would be.
no matter how much i prayed and tried, things still doesn't turn out right.
and i haven't been happy most of the time. i'm always troubled, troubled and even more troubled.

i just kept thinking to myself...
did i really made the right choice in the first place?
probably i'm going against my will without knowing.

what to do?
things are really getting emotional.

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